Remember when I told you I was crazy.

This is my coming out day, I’ll pry loose a few of you over this, and I understand. There is a lot anger out there and the things I’m going to say are things I’ve seen a lot of people point fingers at and call part of the problem, so if you can read this whole thing and still say that I myself am part of the problem, I hear you, and it’s all good, you do what you feel you need to do. I know my worldview and why I do the things I do, could pry get me locked up in a white padded room, but it’s incredibly real to me, it’s my truth, so take a big breath, and here we go.....

The stress, anger, pain, disbelief, frustration, and fear a lot of people are feeling now, are the things I have been feeling and carrying with me for a very long time. The earth has been screaming at us for decades now, I think in some way the current political events, along with the UK leaving the euro union and other fucked shifts, is the infected boil that's been festering for far too long on this planet, finally exploding.

The "system" is shit. I believe it’s been nothing but the pile of band aids people have been using to try and fix the huge festering ignorant infection that is the human race. Not Dem. Not Rep. Not third party, catholic, muslim, jew, gay, straight, trans, black, white, mexican etc... But every last human on this planet (that includes me by the way). I'm seeing a lot of things happen that breaks my heart, people calling out third party, people calling out the DNC, everyone pointing fingers looking for the witch to burn. All this anger (which is fear) exploding all over the place and people blasting and getting into arguments, yelling, without a lot of listening and it’s a giant shut down. No hearts in motion, just anger and fear which are all valid emotions.

My mama bear heart, real love activism is in full effect. There can be no more doubt when I tell you this, we have labeled ourselves into corners, we have boxed ourselves into darkness and now, really now, I hope this explosion of WTF?!! Is bright enough to burn into the back or our ignorant naked ape brains, we can vote all we want, pass as many laws as we think it’s gonna take, but at the end of the day, when they can be just overturned or re-written “by the other side”, why? Laws to force people to accept one another, to protect us from each other? Please tell me I’m not the only one who is seeing how broken this shit is? I honestly don’t think it makes it any better, I think it hardens hearts, and closes minds to any possibility of accepting each other. Until we as the human race, (supposedly the most intelligent things on this plant), stop all the segregating and start to listen and care honestly and openly for one another, it’s just going to keep cycling with more laws and agendas to keep us chasing our tails, pointing fingers, blaming the other side, making us mistrust one another even more, playing the same fucked up game of russian roulette, till all we are seeing are the labels, which are easier to tear gas, beat or shoot down in the middle of the street.

We all want change but we aren’t going to get real honest true change until we take a long hard look in the mirror, and acknowledge the anger we all carry in side ourselves, then try and find the forgiveness within,  (which is the hardest thing to do). I am a truly mad idealist, I mean mad in the Hatter since of its form, and a complete hopeless romantic in the means that I know I'll never see this place evolve into the Utopian scape that my soul longs for it to be and heart feels it once was, but I’ll continue to live my truth and try to inspire. So to spell it out to you without all the flourish, I refuse to participate in things I don’t believe in, I don’t believe in playing games with other people’s lives and I don’t believe in organized religion or politics. What I do believe in, deep down, even today with everything that has happened, is the potential of the human race. I do believe in that.  

Before you look at my picture and judge and say I need to check my privilege, please check your anger and open a dialog with me. Maybe you'll learn that I've been called a dyke bitch, that I've been physically assaulted for my skin color, I’ve been emotionally and sexually abused because of my sexual orientation and I’ve gone to bed hungry too.

I try not to "talk politics", when topics do come up I try not to talk about sides or party lines, I just talk about what I think it is to be a humanitarian. When I do talk, it’s not about just this chunk of land we refer to as our county either, I’m talking about this whole planet that we are suppose to be the stewards of, and taking care of so it can continue to take care of us. I think the systems in place, and others to come, are just stepping stones, that hopefully keep humans moving closer to the kind of place that I try life for today. A place where we won't need labels and laws to force us to tolerate one another. A place where lines don't exist on maps, where borders aren't necessary. A place where we won’t give more value to make believe money than we do to our fellow brothers and sisters. So ya there you go, I am a non registered Humanist who believes that we all are capable of one of the most amazing civilization the universe may ever know. I want to help start change by saying I’m here for ALL of you, even if we don’t see eye to eye. I’ll hold the space for your anger, fear, or even your joy, confusion, questions, any of it. No, It’s not ok, but it’s not forever, and I still believe we can. Please don’t shut down, please don’t give in. Know I love you.