Imagine

This John Lennon classic always makes me smile and I did imagine, all the time. Day dreaming about what the world would look like, feel like, without the shackles of this single dimensioned space we all tend to run circles in. Thinking why couldn't it be that way? Why is it such an obscure notion, why wouldn't we all want to change so we can live in a place where everyone is equal, at peace, and can love freely, without judgement, and without fear? Then again those two words, Change, Fear, they affect us so greatly whether we realize it or not.

Change, if you hunger for it, or fear it, it’s happening. You read about it, see it, hear it, feel it, its all around you everyday, it’s in the air, under our feet, with every breath, you can feel it in every place and every moment if you really allow yourself to be in that moment. “lift up the stone you will find me there.” Ever essence of your being and faith/belief becomes clearer and clearer as change takes place and you allow all the things that hold you back, all the things keeping you focused on everything but what you are right here and right now, the real you, the real beautiful honest and truthful you.

I’ve lived in shadow for most my life. Holding back truths I have felt in the very core of me. Things I have not shared with the people I should pry share with most, all out of fear. Fear, the one single thing that is the root of all suffering, all the hate, all the delusions we’ve built around ourselves to justify how we conduct this singular existence, that could be and mean so much more, on so many different levels.

“We are experiencing a reality based on a thin veneer of lies and illusions.

In a world where greed is our god, and wisdom is sin, where division is key

and unity is fantasy, where the ego driven cleverness of the mind is praised,

rather than the intelligence of the heart. “Bill Hicks”

Within one very important moment, I feel like I am awake. All the layers and defenses melted away. I was deconstructed to nothing and was slowly collected together, less the weight of my fears and insecurities. I don’t think I have to imagine what that world without lines looks like now, no class, religions and colors. All the labels and classifications we obsess over, start wars over, and bend morals to keep, even try and force upon others. These identities we cultivate to feel like we belong, when we were never separated or alone in the first place. I am not American, Christian, white, female, or heterosexual, all these things you would assume when you look at me. I am being, the same as you and the same as all living things, full of light and energy to share.

There are still a million things to say, to share and with time more will come.